FOCUS on the POSITIVE. Everything happens for a reason! Look for the silver lining. These are things I hear myself preaching to others daily on my Instagram account or to friends, family and clients in times of doubt and uncertainty. I know it’s true, so why am I having such a hard time feeling the truth in it myself right now? I am saying the words but the feelings just aren’t matching up. I thought I had the events of the next couple years perfectly arranged, chronologically, and I actually expected them to play out in sequence, but I was wrong. This is the issue with trying to plan your life situation to a t… “we don’t know, what we don’t know” and we cannot bank on things falling in line with our “ideal timing” or exactly how we envision it.
I DO know that everything always works out for me in the end. No matter how off course things have veered in the past, I have always ended up in a better situation that I could have originally imagined, and this time will be no different. I guess you could say this blog is a way for me to smack myself over the head and remember to have faith that everything is going to work out magically. Also a reminder not to take things personally, rather be fully aware that I have created my current situation with the vibration of my thoughts and desires. As much as I may have wanted one outcome, maybe ultimately it is not the best thing for me to achieve my future goals. The universe has manipulated what I thought was a sure thing, to go the other way and I really just need to reaffirm with myself that there is something even better down this change in path. Even just the thought of something better being just around the corner does make me feel a bit of excitement right now as I type this and I’m going to hold on to that.
I know that when things don’t go the way we anticipated or planned a whole other set of possibilities and opportunities open up for us. We may not see them right away, as I am not seeing a clear vision of them right now, but I know that given time it will be apparent that there is a reason for things working out, or in this case not working out, according to my plan. I am reminded that the way I have been feeling most of last week (which granted had been amplified due to Lunar Effect of the full-moon and lunar eclipse on the 23rd) is a reminder to never set specific expectations and just trust in the process. That everything is connected and the universe manipulates people, circumstances and events to align us with, what will ultimately offer the most abundance possible.
I am fully aware that I have been dwelling on this news and allowing it along with some family drama to affect my mood and my week. Even though I know in this particular case I have been treated unfairly and with discrimination, I am ready to Let Go of the frustration, I am ready to let go of my Ego and any feelings of resentment. Just having the simple awareness that I have been feeling and thinking negatively, shows me how far I have come on my spiritual journey. Awareness is everything. Being aware and doing something about it, like changing my focus on the external things that I cannot control and focusing internally on myself. I decided to shift my focus on my own self-care this Easter long weekend. A couple girlfriends brought me to my first Satsang Chanting Meditation class at Siddha Yoga in Toronto (**thanks ladies!**).
According to www.siddhayoga.org “Chanting is a natural way to tune into the frequency of love. Chanting combines singing and music with mantras – words and sounds that vibrate at the highest level of awareness. The vibrations emanating from repeating the names of god or chanting sacred Sanskrit text have a tangible effect on our own inner being. The sweetness of chanting stills the mind, dissolves worries and opens the heart.“
Within the long period of chanting I was able to go deeper in my meditation. I really felt with strong belief in these positive affirmations I have been preaching online and to myself in this current situation. I realized what’s really important, and how in the grand scheme of things, this is NOT. I know first hand it can be hard to STAY POSITIVE when you are the one IN an unfavorable situation. I know I am not perfect, and I am entitled to feel angry, sad, resentful and upset, but I am now ready to practice what I preach, let all that go and look for the silver-lining in my current circumstances. Repeat with me: “By shifting to positive thoughts, feelings, and self-care, I allow more positive experiences into my life.”
peace & namaste, irie soul. Xx