Irie Soul

Irie (I’–ree\adj) – to be at peace with yourself and the status quo of your existence / Soul ('sōl\noun) – the spiritual part of a person that is believed to give life to the body

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On To The Next…


In a mother’s womb were two babies.  One asked the other: “Do you believe in life after delivery?” The other replied, “Why, of course.  There has to be something after delivery.  Maybe we are here to prepare ourselves for what we will be later.” “Nonsense” said the first.  “There is no life after delivery.  What kind of life would that be?”

The second said, “I don’t know, but there will be more light than here.  Maybe we will walk with our legs and eat from our mouths.  Maybe we will have other senses that we can’t understand now.”

The first replied, “That is absurd.  Walking is impossible.  And eating with our mouths?  Ridiculous! The umbilical cord supplies nutrition and everything we need.  But the umbilical cord is so short.  Life after delivery is to be logically excluded.”

The second insisted, “Well I think there is something and maybe it’s different than it is here.  Maybe we won’t need this physical cord anymore.”

The first replied, “Nonsense.  And moreover if there is life, then why has no one ever come back from there?  Delivery is the end of life, and in the after-delivery there is nothing but darkness and silence and oblivion.  It takes us nowhere.”

“Well, I don’t know,” said the second, “but certainly we will meet Mother and she will take care of us.”

The first replied “Mother?  You actually believe in Mother?  That’s laughable.  If Mother exists then where is She now?”

The second said, “She is all around us.  We are surrounded by Her.  We are of Her.  It is in Her that we live.  Without Her this world would not and could not exist.”

Said the first: “Well I don’t see Her, so it is only logical that She doesn’t exist.”

To which the second replied, “Sometimes, when you’re in silence and you focus and you really listen, you can perceive Her presence, and you can hear Her loving voice, calling down from above.”

Utmutato a Leleknek

Translated from Hungarian

This excerpt, which I am #reposting from my very spiritual friend, really touched me– To The Core.  They say a person who possesses a higher level of consciousness and enlightenment has no fear of death.  For them it is actually the opposite where death is believed to be a rebirth, a new beginning or even the next chapter.  I have defined the Spirit as ‘the spiritual part of a person that gives life to the body’.  When you think of it in these ways, it has the same context as that of a snake, when we die, we shed our physical bodies but our spirit transcends.  This happens to a snake when they outgrow their body, similarly we can say the same for the soul.

They say the idea of life and death being the be-all, end-all, happens for those who identify themselves with the body, more than identifying with or knowing Yourself.   If you are too identified with the body, the idea of the body ceasing to exist and separating from the material world makes death seem like – The End. Like the baby in the story who was so attached to being with the umbilical cord.  If you are not so identified with the body and you know yourself as the witnessing soul and as the consciousness, then there is no death.  I ‘m not going to pretend to have attained this heightened sense of consciousness and enlightenment, as the thought of my death rattles me.  But this piece really makes me think about the possibility of there being a next chapter, just like we know there was for those twin babies.  If your dealing with an illness of your own or of a loved one, or have recently lost someone dear to you, re-read the piece above and find comfort in the possibility that there is another chapter.  There is a possibility that the soul does move onto the next one.  The next stage of our conscious existence.

I’m going to take this one step further and ask you to think about this:

If we shed our bodies when we die, and our soul lives on, do we really need all these plastic surgeries and all these fancy name brand clothes and accessories?  None of that material stuff comes with us, all there is, is Us.  Your body is a manifestation, used for experiencing the material world by the spirit-soul and and all the material things are just a temporary part of our existence.  I know these things temporarily make us feel good, but that’ about it.  All of these things are just part of what make up our EGO and the image we have or want for ourselves.

Will your “friends” recognize You without all those material things?  In the next chapter will you be perceived just as beautiful based only on your life actions and the spirit of your soul?  Something to think about..  I’m not saying it is right or wrong to have nice things or to just really like your stuff, this is your journey and you can do with it what you like and what makes you feel good.  But remember that none of these things can move on to the next chapter with you – with your consciousness; so what will you have to make you feel good then?  Just Yourself…. and maybe the beautiful Elephly’s that exist in the next one.


peace & reflect. Xx

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Feng Shui

Gung Hay Fat Choi!!  In celebration and recognition of Chinese New Year I started this post on the ancient Chinese practice of Feng Shui.  I have heard the term feng shui before and but all I knew about it was that it brought a sense of calm and good luck.  I wasn’t sure exactly how. Exactly what is it?  How can I apply it to my life?  A little extra good luck can only help me on my journey!  Feng Shui (pronounced ‘fung shway’) dates back over 4000 years.  This ancient Chinese practice revolves around the idea that everything possesses a life force of energy called “chi”.  It is believed, not only does “chi” flow through our bodies, but also flows through our living environment.  In English the tern Feng Shui translates into “wind water”, the two natural elements that flow, move and circulate everywhere, and the two most basic elements of human survival.  It is referred to as the art of placement; a process involving spatial arrangement and orientation.  The idea is that your physical space should be arranged in a way for chi to flow gently in harmony creating a space that feels good and brings you good luck.  Chinese culture is known to be very superstitious.  Good chi supports our wishes for good luck, good health, harmonious relationships and prosperity. Unbalanced chi may lead to ill health, domestic conflict or financial concerns.  The most basic principal of creating a space with good chi is to keep your space neat and clean.  I know when my condo’s a mess it gives me anxiety… especially when someone comes by and I didn’t get the chance to clean or at least hide the mess.  To have a complete sense of fung shui you must not only maintain a clean space, you need to map your space out.

Feng shui specialists developed the bagua, a tool which aides in mapping out areas in your home that are connected to specific areas of your life.  Bagua translated from Chinese means “8 areas”.  The home is made up of eight main areas of energy that are connected to your life: Helpful people/travel, Career/Life Mission, Knowledge/Spiritual growth, Health/Family, Money/Prosperity, Fame/Social Life, Love and marriage, and Creativity/Children.  To define the traditional feng shui bagua of your space you first need to take a compass reading of your space precisely mapping out which areas fall inside the coordinates of North, North-East, East, South-East, South, South-West, and West.  Once you have the compass reading and the floor plan, place the bagua in the center of the space, lining up the north section of the bagua with the compass reading of the North area in your space and you will see the 8 locations of different feng shui areas of your space.  Each of the 8 feng shui areas or directions are connected to the life areas mentioned above, and they each relate to a specific feng shui element and colour.  The traditional bagua looks like the picture below.


To make feng shui more accessible to Western society, the spiritual leader, Grand Master Lin Yun, developed a Western form of feng shui which he introduced in the 1970’s.  The Western bagua, called the Black Hat Sect Feng Shui, a.k.a. the BTB, is made up of 9 areas which are the same as listed above, (with the exception that on some BTB maps the health and family are split into two areas side by side).  The bagua is placed over the floor plan of the space and the space it covers, shows the location of nine main areas of energy in every home.  This is becoming the more preferred bagua of use and is arranged like the picture below.


You can create this grid on you own, using tracing paper of the same size of your floor plan.  Superimpose it over your floor plan by aligning the bottom row of the grid with the wall of your front door.  Once you determine which areas of your space are connected to the specific areas of the bagua you can apply these to make a positive affect to those areas of your life. You can introduce the corresponding bagua elements of water, wood, earth, fire and metal, with the area they correspond to in your space to create a positive flow of chi.

Introducing these elements does not need to be extravagant or complicated.  For example, wood can be introduced to the health and family area as simply as hanging a picture, with a photo of your family or friends, in a wooden frame in that area of your space.  For luck and prosperity in your career, you can bring in the element of water by hanging a painting of a body of water or you can introduce the color black to this area of your home.

There are also a number of feng shui symbols you can place in your home to bring good luck.  The Dragon, Lucky Bamboo, The Laughing Buddha, Chinese Coins,  The Mystic Knot, Foo Dogs, The Pagoda Tower, Wind Chimes, a Money Tree Plant and The Waving Lucky Kitty.

feng shui lucky coins       Shisa in Okinawa,Japan       西尔瓦娜Comugnero

Applying the proper Feng Shui cures will improve the quality of the energy in your space and not only attract better luck your way, but create a space that makes you feel good, positive, calm, balanced and happy.

peace & prosperity! Xx


Smoke It Out

Have you ever felt like you are susceptible to feeling or being affected by the energy around you?  I can recall times where I’ve walked into a room that gave off strange vibes.  There are even a couple people who have been introduced into my life recently who I can’t help but feel weary around.  Well I no longer think it’s just me being paranoid.  I realize, I feel this way around these places or people because of the energy they give off, and because I am one of those people, more sensitive to sensing it.

Recently I’ve learned that there is an easy way to purify some of these negative energies by smoking it out.  Now this is not the type of smoke you’re probably thinking of…  it’s a spiritual practice referred to as smudging.  Smudging is a sacred spiritual tradition that has been performed by Native Americans for centuries to purify and cleanse, as well as to ward off evil.   It is a ritual that involves the burning of dried herbs; such as sage, sweet grass and cedar, to create smoke which clears and purifies – it smokes it out.  Smudging can be used in the home, in an object, in an office or even on a person.  It can be used when you’re feeling depressed, angry, resentful, unwell, after having nightmares or after you’ve gotten all worked up from having an argument with someone.  I’ve even read that smudging can help you get over a traumatic negative experience.

When moving into a new home some people like perform a smudging to clear out the energy of other people, as the previous tenant’s or home owners energy could be old, sad or negative.  Or maybe suddenly for either no reason at all, or after a bad experience, you are aware of an off energy in a familiar place that you never felt before?   Smudging can help to correct these energies.  When smudging your home, once the stick is lit it is suggested to spread the smoke in a meditative way while stating what your intentions are.  For example, “Bless this home and all who enter it with love and positivity.  Please cleanse this home of any negative or stagnant energy and we ask the good spirits to stay and the bad spirits to leave.”  Walk around your home beginning at the front door, going around the door frames, waving the smoke so it reaches the corners, the walls from floor to ceiling, from room to room, until you end up back at the front door, or wherever you started.  Make sure you have windows and or doors open so that the negative energy you smoke out can flow out of your space while the positive energy takes its place.  It’s also ideal to clean your space before you smudge it.  The same methods can be used for smudging your office or work space.

I have heard the term “you should burn sage” before and I sort of knew what it meant, but now I have a deeper understanding of what it is all about (like who knew you could smudge a person?!) and how to do it.  And now I know you can even smudge Yourself!  By smudging yourself, you purify and remove your own negative energies.  If you would like to perform the ceremony as the Native Americans do, you will want to honor Mother Earth. First, thank the Four Directions by beginning in the East, then South, West and North, working clockwise. Next, hold the smudge near the ground to thank Mother Earth and then above to honor Father Sky and the Great Spirit.  Then you can begin to fan the smoke onto yourself from top to bottom, front to back, and side to side, cleansing your aura of any disturbances, and then also inhaling a small amount of the smoke to cleanse your insides.

Okay it all sounds great, so how do we do this?  Well you can buy smudge “sticks” or “wands” for burning or you can burn loose dried herbs in a “smudge bowl” (or any fire safe bowl).  Smudge sticks are dried herbs that come bundled, usually bound with a string like the picture below.

Sage Smudge Sticks

If you are located in the city in Toronto, you can buy smudge sticks at, International Herbs, in Kensington Market.  All you do is light one end of the stick with a long match or a candle, (it may take a moment to fully light) then carefully blow out the flame so that the end is just smoking (like a cigar) and gently fan the smoke.   You will want to have something under the stick to catch any embers or ash when lighting it and while spreading around the smoke.  When you finish smudging simply extinguish the smudge stick by suffocating the flames.  Ensure it is completely extinguished as it could start a fire.  If you are burning loose dried leaves/herbs in a bowl, you light just one or two leaves or a pinch of the herbs at a time, as we want the herbs to smolder, not flame up or start a fire.   When burning herbs in a bowl, they also suggest using a fan to direct the smoke.  Oh and yes, you can make your own smudge sticks.  Try to obtain and burn a variety of herbs to see what you like best.  All three mentioned above, purify and remove negative energy, the most popular being white sage.  Obviously, if the smell of an herb turns you off, you shouldn’t use it for clearing negative energy.

We smudged our home last night to remove all the stale, negative energies (including the ones I used to produce myself before my days of yoga and meditation).  I also smudged as a way to celebrate my new energetic, vibrational spiritual connection with the world.  It didn’t happen right away (as I was kinda waiting for something to happen once we finished) but I did feel a sense of calm after I just sat on the couch and chilled out.  With the condo so spick ‘n span I also felt like we were starting a fresh new slate.  I felt really relaxed and was in bed and passed out before 10 pm (which is super early for me – whose goes to bed at nine something?).

The use of smudging is so versatile and is an important spiritual practice that will help attract good and positive energies to your aura.  The purity of your intent is the most important factor as well as treating this sacred practice with respect.  So if you’re feeling negative or stagnant energy around you –  smoke it out!  Happy smudging!

peace & smudge! Xx


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The Full Moon – The Lunar Effect

Did you feel the effects of the Full Moon last night? Maybe over the past couple days?  If you haven’t yet, there are still a couple days to go before its effects can no longer leave an impression.  Let me tell you how.

A Full Moon occurs when the moon is on the exact opposite side of the Sun, with reference to the Earth.  While it sits here it appears to be fully illuminated, occurring roughly every 29.5 days.  In Toronto the moment of the true Full Moon occurred at 6:09 pm, the minute where it was 100% completely illuminated.  We still consider the Moon to be full when it is at least 95 % illuminated so while coming into (Waxing Gibbous) and going out of (Waning Gibbous) this ‘complete’ illumination.  In this way the full moon lasts a few days.

One explanation for the change in human behavior during a Full Moon is the theory that because the human body is said to be made up of 70% water, the gravitational pull of the moon would affect our bodies in the same way it affects the tide in the oceans, making us more physically active.  However scientific studies have proven this theory to be false.

Although the moons effects on human behavior are not scientifically proven, in the spiritual world it is believed to have an impact.  This impact is referred to as the lunar effect.  It is described that, all objects, like we know from astrology, including stars, planets and satellite bodies, emanate subtle intangible frequencies which have an influence and affect our consciousness.

The frequencies emanating from the moon affect the frequencies of the mind; our feelings, emotions and desires.  On a New Moon and Full Moon day these frequencies are more active, a heightened activity of the mind is observed.  This activity can range from our thoughts, productivity, and creativity.  Like in popular belief the Full Moon can have negative effects wreaking havoc on our emotions (which it usually does to me) but it can also present itself as a time of positive opportunity and development.   Whatever your mood is, the feeling will be intensified.   Over the past couple days, things that would normally piss me off, sent me into a tail spin.  Once I realized it was “that time of the lunar cycle” again I was able to be more aware of my feelings, knowing they are prone to escalate quickly.

Now that we are aware we are in a full moon cycle and know its effects, we can use this time to benefit ourselves positively.  During a new moon and full moon, it is the perfect time to think creatively, to focus, and manifest our dreams and goals.  Making plans, or starting a project around this time is great as those creative juices are flowing more freely and we are able to hold a greater focus on whatever it is we are working on.  For example, I started this whole webpage and blog during the full moon cycle in January; and didn’t even realize it until I started writing this post today!  In theory, manifesting our dreams and goals over a Full Moon will also give a stronger pull on the law of attraction.  All of this also applies as being and opportune time for working on yourself.  Doing yoga and meditating during this time will yield stronger results as the more calm we are, the more of a positive effect we will receive.  (If you haven’t read my post on Meditation, I would recommend it today!)

Right now is also the perfect time to think positively and be grateful for what we have, so take a moment to reflect today.  Take a minute to breathe in a few deep breaths and actually smile.  Think about all the blessings you have been given and all that life has to offer.

peace! Xx

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Let It Go

I know this is one of those easier said than done type things but I’m going with it anyway because it is something we will all be better doing. We all have that thing that we are holding onto and that we would be better off letting go of. Just let it go. It could be a difficult or traumatizing experience from the past that’s harboring negative feelings in our subconscious. Or a recent fight or argument with a close friend or family member that’s causing awkwardness, resentment and lingering bad feelings. It could even be just a brief negative experience (with that random super angry unnecessarily rude stranger), whose managed to transfer their mood onto you, creating anxiety and raising your blood pressure. This last type, those random negative encounters, used to really affect me. Sometimes literally ruining my whole day and affecting my interactions with everyone thereafter. Thanks to yoga and meditation I have learned to just let it go. It’s by no means easy and I’m not saying I’m never affected, but I’ve learned to take a few deep breaths and just exhale that negative energy out. Now with my new-found ability to see things in a new light I’ve also learned to actually feel compassion for these miserable individuals, where I used to just feel angry and bitter towards them. These people enter our experience for such a brief time, and however unpleasant they may be, they are not worth wasting our energy over. Just take a deep breath, let it go and continue on with your day. One trick I’ve learned to use, from my Calm app, is to force a smile after these types of unpleasant encounters. Just the feeling of smiling, in those muscles in your face, can really help swing your mood back to a positive one.

So how do we learn to let go of these deep-seated experiences from our past? Like I said before this is easier said than done, but it can be done by accepting what happened and accepting that what’s done is done. Realizing there is nothing we can do to change the past and seeing that we do more harm to ourselves by holding onto it and bringing all that old shit into our present, will make it easier to just let it go. This won’t happen immediately once we realize these things, but over time, by taking it day by day, we can learn to let go, inch by inch, until we feel at peace with the acceptance that we have moved on from the experience. Think of it as holding onto the string of a helium balloon. Right now you are holding onto the balloon itself, and over time you learn to let go of the balloon and hold onto the string. Then you learn to move further and further down the string of the balloon until you just let go; letting the balloon and all those negative feelings float far away. Not only will we learn from these past negative traumatic or life-changing experiences, but we will also grow and learn from the experience of letting them go.

If you’re holding on to a grudge over an argument or fight with a friend or family member the best way to just let it go is by thinking about what’s really important in life. Time is so precious and avoiding somebody you love just wastes the precious time that we all have together here on earth. Spending time fighting with someone and being annoyed over these situations is also an unproductive waste of your own time.  When you think about it like this, it will be easier to be the bigger person and reach out to your friend or family. Sometimes it will also take acknowledging that maybe their behavior towards you has nothing to do with Yourather the way they communicate or react, is just the way they are. In some of these cases, letting go won’t necessarily mean we will let these people back into our lives, as a similar situation may be bound to repeat itself, but letting go of the animosity will benefit you. You will be freeing yourself of tension and negative thoughts towards this person (negative thoughts from your mind) and allow yourself to avoid a potential uncomfortable encounters, especially when it comes to family, an encounter is bound to happen.

When we hold on to these negative feeling our chakras are affected and will become unbalanced and overtime can have more physical effects on our well-being. Holding onto past experiences over a long period of time does even more damage, especially when we’re harboring feelings of anger. Holding on to these negative feelings cause tension and create anxiety and stress in our present as we are constantly conjuring these types of energies. How can we expect to have positive results in our life when we’re holding on to negativity? Again, all this may take some time but once you do finally let it go you will feel the proverbial weight lifted off your shoulders. So try it out, take a deep breath and let it go! It is an important part of reaching enlightenment and living that positive lifestyle, with no more drama!  Okay – now cue the Frozen sound track…”Let it Go…. Let it Gooooooooooooo!…”

peace & release! Xx

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My Intro to Chakras

I have recently discovered that within our bodies are separate energy centres, where all our energy’s flow through. They are called our chakras and they make up parts of our aura. Although I know I still have a lot to learn about this system, so far this what I have discovered.

Chakras are made up of seven separate energy centres along the centreline of our upper body. These energy centres start at the base of our spine and go up to the top of our heads. The word chakra is derived from the Sanskrit word, meaning wheel. Think of each chakra as a wheel of energy continuously spinning or rotating. The state of each chakra is reflected in our health, as each chakra can be related to specific parts of our bodies.

The things we experience and the thoughts we have get filtered through our chakras. Our life story, our experiences, feelings, emotions, etc., can have a positive or a negative effect on our chakra system. These effects cause our chakras to be either balanced or imbalanced (over-active or under-active). Our attitudes and the way we react to situations directly affect the state of our energy centres. If we hold on to feelings of resentment, don’t let go of painful experiences from our past or consistently overreact or have negative responses to situations, it is like we are putting a burden on our energy centres and they become imbalanced. All these negative connotations filter through our chakras and ultimately our bodies bear the repercussions and eventually we become physically ill. “Our biography becomes our biology” (- Carolin Symm).   This is why it’s beneficial to live a positive lifestyle and to learn compassion, understanding and patience. It’s also important to be aware of other people’s negative behaviours and not let them transfer it onto us.

The seven chakras are each represented by a colour. Starting from the bottom, the chakra at the base of our spine, I’ll go through each one describing where it is located in our body, how they affect and influence us, as well as which part of the body they can affect health wise.

Muladhara, the RED a.k.a. the root chakra is located at the base of the spine and is our connection to Mother Earth as it connects us with our physical world. It represents the part of our consciousness concerned with self-awareness. It is affected by how we feel we are surviving, and how stable we feel about our home, our job and our finances. Your kidneys, bladder, the vertebral column, hips, legs and lower back are areas related to this chakra.

Svadisthana, the ORANGE a.k.a. the sacral charka is located in the lower abdomen. It represents the part of our consciousness concerned with self-respect. It is how we perceive ourselves and is affected by our ability to have the freedom to be ourselves, to give in to pleasure and sexuality. It also motivates us and is the seat of our creativity. Your uterus, large bowel, prostate, ovaries and testes are the organs related to this chakra.

Manipura, the YELLOW a.k.a. the solar plexus charka is located in the abdomen. It represents the part of our consciousness concerned with self-worth. It is affected by how we feel others perceive us – our confidence and self-esteem. It is our ability to be at ease, just being our self around others. Your liver, spleen, stomach and small intestine are the organs related to this chakra as well as your pancreas.

Anahata, the GREEN a.k.a. the heart chakra is located at the centre of our bodies in the chest. It represents the part of our consciousness concerned with love as well as self-love. It is affected by our ability to give and take unconditionally in relationships, as well as having love for your self. Your heart, chest, breasts, lungs and thymus gland are related to this chakra.

Vishuddha, the BLUE a.k.a. the throat chakra is located at the base of the throat. It represents the part of our consciousness concerned with self-expression of feelings and beliefs. It is affected by our ability to freely communicate our needs, and the spirit of truth. The throat and lungs thyroid gland are related to this Chakra. The upper digestive tract can be affected by imbalance in this area.

Anja, the INDIGO a.k.a. the brow or third eye charka is located at the centre of the forehead. It represents the part of our consciousness concerned with self-image. It is affected by our ability to trust our own intuition when we make decisions. It also allows us to foresee and envision desired outcomes. Your eyes, lower head, temples and sinuses are related to this chakra.

Sahasrara, the VIOLET a.k.a. the crown charka is located at the top of the head and is our connection to the Divine, Our Father. It represents the part of our consciousness concerned with self-knowledge and spiritual awareness. It is affected by the union between your higher self and spirituality, reaching a higher consciousness, pure bliss and a divine connection. The brain and the nervous system are related to this chakra.

Working on keeping your chakras in balance is good for the mind, body and soul. I look forward to learning more about our energy centres, finding ways to recognize imbalances in our chakras and discovering ways to balance and nourish them.

peace & balance. Xx

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Meditate… Just Do It!!

Meditating regularly has really begun to impact my life.  I know how that’s going to sound to most people – meditation….. riiiight (insert winky emoticon).  Believe me, I was never one to even think of meditation, let alone practise it on the regular.  I would get images of monks wearing burgundy robes, sitting cross legged, arms out to the side, palms up, pointer finger to thumb, humming – with their eyes closed.  Definitely not something for me and who has time for that anyways?  Well my now husband found time, and he was the first to introduce me to it.  After he was inspired by an article to take a 30 day hiatus from all social media, he needed something else to occupy his time.  The article mentioned meditation so he researched the perfect app to help him get started, and we’re so glad he did.  Like I said before; and you will probably continue to hear me say, I was never a calm person, this new app my hubby found is actually called “Calm”.  He tried it out and immediately came to me saying, “Babe this app was made for you!”  After the first time I tried it I was hooked!  After no time at all the free version of Calm was not enough, so I bit the $4.99 bullet and paid for the upgrade which gives you access to all different meditation programs.

Another major influence that grew my love for meditation came through my yoga instructor, Karey.  Karey begins each class with an internal focus meditation focusing on breathing, which helps turn off the millions of thoughts running through my mind.  She ends each class with positive affirmation meditations which send you home on a really high note.  Most of what she speaks about during these meditation periods before and after our, “strength and length” yoga practise resonates with me in my day to day.  It’s taught me patience, to think before reacting and how to let go of the little things that used to affect me so much I’d let them ruin my whole day.

So when I say that meditating is really impacting my life, I mean it’s changing my not so great a.k.a. bad attitude, my anxiety, my ability to process other peoples negative behaviors and my anger – which those who know me best refer to as my rage.  I wish I could, but I know I cannot blame the rage on my Graves disease (which is known to cause states of “graves rage” for those who live with it).  But add in the effects of Graves which include a hyper-active thyroid, a constant speedy heart rate, all of a sudden anxiety attacks, hot flashes, etc, to someone who already has anger issues, and those anger issues can get worse.  I’m not saying I never get mad anymore, and that things don’t bother me, but I am able to take a deep breath a step back and look at the situation in a different way.  Maybe not always right away, but the anger and periods of anxiety shorten and I’m able to gain new perspective once I take a breath and think about it.

Meditation is also teaching me how to shut off my mind.  How to turn off the noise and just focus on being.  Being calm and peaceful.  It’s like I’m internalizing my mind, I’m in my own little bubble and reaching a different state of consciousness.   For a few minutes, without having to actually go on a vacation, I feel hakuna-matata – just no worries.  The affirmations from the app help me cultivate constructive thoughts that stay with me throughout the day, and more importantly come to me when I’m experiencing a difficult time, like in times of anxiety.

I would definitely recommend meditation to everyone.  I am by no means a pro at it, I still need the guided help from my Calm app.  And for anyone this post may have interested, I’ll briefly explain how the app works. (I wish I had shares in this app! I’ve already got 3 of my friends on it!)  First off, the great thing about the app is like I mentioned before, the meditations are guided; meaning all you have to do to meditate, is listen the voice coming out of your phone.  Also, there’s no need to feel pressure for making time to try it out.  The app has two, five and ten minute options for each session.  Two minutes is nothing in terms of finding the time, but those two minutes will make a positive difference in your day.  Before you get started with your meditation, you select a background scene, mine is almost always set to a beach scene, the sound of waves crashing on the beach is my happy place.  That’s really all the work you have to do before you begin, choose your happy place and then just lay or sit there and listen.  If you really like it, then you’ll have one more step, choose your program.  There are a wide range, from anxiety release, positivity, motivation, creativity, focus and so many more.

I truly believe if everyone made time to meditate regularly the world would be a happier place because people would be happier.  Maybe I’m wrong and meditating isn’t for everyone, but I know 100% that it’s been amazing for me!  If you are so inclined to try this app please leave a comment below after you have and let me know what you think!

peace & zen! Xx


hello world

Hello world!

Wow my first post!! Been months in the waiting… but months are better than years though right? In 2014 I felt like I “woke up”. I feel like I had been enlightened, with a new sense of what I now know is referred to as an awakened consciousness. It was like I became aware that the path I was travelling on needed a change in direction, like I could be a better person.  The more I dove into it, I realized I could become a better version of myself and that transformation had already begun without me even realizing it.

There is no significant incident or situation that I can attribute to this awakening, but I can say my new hobbies; yoga and meditation – yes meditation, helped opened my eyes.  I was able to really hear and see myself, from the inside and boy did I hear myself – a kicking, screaming, angry, anxious, maniac ready to erupt for any reason.  I didn’t start yoga in hopes of “finding myself” or making a major change in my life, it was really just to get myself exercising again. After some health issues took me out of the gym and away from my personal trainer for months, I just wanted to do something to feel active again.

I have never been what you would call a calm person, the exact opposite actually (as per the angry, anxious maniac mentioned above), but this awakening brought a sense of calm, positivity and understanding to my life.  Being the Virgo-Leo cusp that I am, I submerged myself with as much information Google could provide on what this all means and what it is I should do with it.  I barely skimmed the surface of all the teachings and practices out there that assist you in reaching a full sense of enlightenment, but that is what I plan to do within this blog.  They say if you tell yourself you are going to do something, there’s a small percentage you will actually do it.  If you write down that thing you want to do, that percentage increases.  But when you tell someone what you plan to do, the chances are much higher that you will follow through because now you can be held accountable.  So here I am writing it all down and broadcasting it, putting it out there, so that I stick to my plan to continue on this spiritual journey and practice the teachings I find, the ones that speak to me, along the way.

A lot of what I have already come across, I feel is not only relevant to me, but applies to a lot of my friends. I have always been one of those people that others naturally come to with their problems, whether for advice or just a ear (although whether they ask for it or not they always get some advice). This is another reason why I decided to document my research, so that I may inspire others, or at the very least provide some light entertainment as travel on my “new age” journey.  I will leave you with the following mantra from the Dalai Lama…



I read this during the tenacious effects of the Full Moon in the first few days of 2015 “where the energy of Cancer (our caretaker within) and Capricorn (our ambitious side) had come out in full swing”.

These beautiful words gave me that little extra push to start this little project of mine!

peace & welcome! Xx